My poor puppy is really ill, he has been in hospital all week with the Parvo virus and is showing no signs of getting better, I am really scared at the moment because I just don't know how i will react if he goes, just stuck in this not knowing stage is driving me crazy. I spoke with the hospital earlier and they say his prognosis is not great, what is the point of loving something/someone so intensley that you let yourself get to this state? and in a puppy his age does all the time ive spent with him count for anything? is the few weeks of love and attention from me enough for him? does he feel furfilled? its just not fair

Am stressy today fo the last two weeks ive had to hand in 3 essays only to find out i have another 2 due by monday and thursday repectively! Am also away with my Sir for the weekend to a genuine hunting lodge in the middle of a stately home ground wow!!!! But I have an essay due which I truthfully only started today aghhhh! another downside is no internet to help aghhhh i'm actually going to have to read lol! No joking aside I reallty need to do well to get into a good London Uni for next year. I am just so crap at doing real life things and deadlines maybe one of these days i will eventually sort myself out although I dont kinda see this hapening soon.....

two fucking years, buying all his xmas presents for his family, doing his fucking washing and all for what? him to get bored of me and fuck someone else when i'm at uni I mean really if he wanted it that bad, a text to say, this dirty fuckslut wants cock, Im fine, like really fine, but lying WTF? He has now just answered a text with i only used a few toys, but why in fuck didi i have to find the dirty toys rather then be told? It feels like i do all the work for none of the pleasure, Things have been off for a while but fuck me did i think they were this bad.bollocks to this I 'm going for a couple of days i hope he enjoys his shit....

I know there is a credit crunch on but is forty quid really worth 7 1/2  hours of watching crap theater? I'll update later!

Later: OK maybe it was fun I managed to pull a really hot litlle dyke, including a date on Sunday woo hoo, as well as giving someone a good hard first flogging yeaht he puppy, ani i earnt 17 quid in tips xxxx

Oh my god I love the gym, lets calculate:
20 mins running
20 mins bike
20 mins arm bike
Good stretch
100 reps x 60kg on machine squats
100 reps x 80kg   "          "            "
 25  reps x 100kg            "             "

Bit of a wobbly stretch
30 reps x 30kg on overhead coathanger thing
30 reps x 30kg on overhead pull up attachment thingie
40 reps x 30kg on chest press
 Nice arm stretch

Spoke to trainer to see if i could possibly do some bench presses free weights but with assistance. He said he had been watching me and suggested a 40kg ten reps.
I managed 5 in the first set
and 4 in the second
The last nearly killed me but i did it, it took a wholoe minuite to get up the trainer couldn't beleive my determination and asjked if i would like to train with them for some light competions against other clubs, might be doable i suppose although i dont wants horrificly scary muscles i do want some x

All in all a awesome work out lalalalalala happy the invincable puppy, now a nice filthy play session would be in order xxxxxx
(Am thinking of some one for this..... miss ya x